I’m not overly excited for my weigh in at SFL today! I know I am way up, mostly due to a ton of water retention from a ton of alcohol lol luckily that’s a once a year thing and I know it’ll be a fairly quick recovery. I’m getting too old for nights like that, but man it was worth it 🙂 Usually on weigh in day I don’t have a drop of anything in the morning (WI is at 10:30) however today I had water and a coffee. I figured water (and caffeine) intake outweighed my scale result for today. Which I’m going to consider a NSV, since I’m almost mostly concerned about the scale.
I’ve also been having some major knee problems in the past few weeks that are getting almost unbearable. The best way to describe it, is that it feels like there are hot shards of glass under my kneecap, i’m thinking that can’t be good. I’ve been taking more of my Celebrex than I normally like to, so I know that, along with the injury itself, it also causing fluid build up in my knee and the meds are causing even more water retention than a night of drinking. It’s almost to the point I’m going to have to go back to my doctor and ask to get my knee looked at, but she already thinks I’m crazy so I’ve been putting it off. It’s frustrating because I want so badly to be active and I can hardly walk around the house right now without pain. Sometimes, I really feel like my body is against me at every turn on this journey.
Just a quick note to say “I did it!“ Today was the first day in a long while that I feel like I did okay. I drink 2.8L of water, ate well, no late snacks, and am getting to bed before midnight (another goal for this week)
One day in the books, SFL tomorrow and just one day at a time.
K, now that the Adam Sandler reference is out of the way…
today my focus is water!
There are countless reasons water is good for weight loss, but water is good for for everyone, period. I notice a huge difference in the scale on weeks when I get in my 2-3L of water daily versus the weeks I do not, so in the spirit of getting back into the “small things” ,my main focus this week is water!
Previously, I was a big pusher of the school of thought that ideal weight loss comes from drinking 1/2 of your body weight in ounces daily. Well, although I did lose weight doing that, I also thought I should have been getting paid for it because it felt like a job! Lets be real, I’m not a small gal so drinking 1/2 of my body weight was a bit insane! When I brought this theory up to my SFL consultant he said that yes, while it’s great in theory, that’s an insane amount of water for me personally. He also said that large variations in my day to day water intake can actually do more harm than good. By drinking 4L one day and 1-2L the next, my body never knows when or what amount of water is coming so it was actually storing it rather then using it to flush me out! Crazy right? He suggested I focus more on a realistic 2-3L a day, and that a small fluctuation daily will be fine, but let’s be real, I don’t have time to run to the bathroom ever 1/2 hour like I was drinking over 4L a day. Who does!?
So flavour it with fruit if you don’t like plain water and bottoms up! 🙂 Here’s what my day in water looks like today!*picture from last week but same mix!
The support one can get from a fantastic group of “strangers” is sometimes overwhelming 🙂 I say “strangers” because it doesn’t feel that way at all, it feels like most of these people are friends who know me, truly know me and the struggle that this journey is. I am eternally grateful for each and every one of them. Thank you
After my post yesterday I realized that keep up with the blog really does help me sort through a lot of feelings and setbacks on this mission to become the fit and healthy person I know is in there. I also feel like if one other person reading this goes oh, thank god! I thought I was the only one! then sharing my personal trials has been worth it. So I’m going to try to update more often but in the meantime I’ll be focusing on the small things to get my mindset back where it needs to be. I was comfortable when I was working for my health, this place I’m in now (the place I’ve lived so many years) is not comfortable, it feels wrong, and sad, depressing and well, icky. and that is what made me realize I’m not giving up. I’ve come too far, learned too much and have found out I have too much respect in myself, to let myself go back to the person I used to be. This is who I am now, for my family, my children, but mostly for me.
I’ve been thinking about making an update for awhile now, but honestly I have nothing good to say! I feel like I’m spinning in place, like I want it, but not bad enough to put in the effort. I think a lot of this is my impending 30th Birthday coming up in March. When I started this journey I came in guns “ablazing” ready to concur the world of fat by my 30th. Now here I sit, almost 30, still fat, still unhappy but with a happy façade that I got this thing under control, when in reality, I feel so out of control and lost. I look at my amazing kids and teach them all these great and healthy habits and how to love themselves, and meanwhile I feel like I’m living a lie. I do want this, I want to be the person I see in my head and I know I can be but a lot of days lately I just feel like I don’t know how.
I know this is just another bump in the road and that I’ll get over it because I do, truly, want to.