I often wonder as I’m getting groceries, who is sneaking a glance at my shopping cart. So because we were out of pretty much everything here is what my grocery cart looked like today:
My first stop is always the produce as that’s where I spend the majority of my time in the store. My usual cart of grapes, baby spinach, sweet potato, asparagus, spaghetti squash, parsley and cilantro, kiwi, mushrooms, and a few other goodies. Cauliflower was on sale and they also had PURPLE cauliflower, so exciting! Dragonfruit was also on sale, so I picked one up! I’ve never had it before, so any tips on what to do with it would be appreciated!
Next comes the interior of the store, where I try to spend as little time and money as possible, we’ve got some greek yogurt, unsweetened apple sauce for the kids, lunch meat for the hubby, a few canned veggies for emergencies as well as tiny corn and water chestnuts for stirfry (can’t have one without those!) I’ve also been wanting cupcakes lately so I got some black beans and pumpkin to make some healthy(er) cupcakes 🙂 I freeze them in baggies so when I have a sweet tooth I can just thaw one and squash that craving in a not so destructive way.
I also made a Costco trip a couple days ago where I stocked up on broccoli, peppers, tomatoes, kale salad, apples, lemons, plain greek yogurt and egg whites.
This cart is not perfect, but it’s a far cry from the cart I would have been pushing a few years ago 🙂
So yesterday was my 30th birthday! It was bitter sweet, not because I was the “big” 3-0 but because I was still plain ol “big”. When I started this journey I had high hopes of having a kick ass 30th birthday party and showing off my much lighter self, very Extreme Weightloss-esq. And here I sit, only 30-40 lbs lighter than I was when I was having all these amazing ideas . At the time I didn’t realize the intense emotional journey this would become, and even though I’m not at the “finish line” I had hoped I would be, I realize now that I’m better for it. I’m more committed then ever, I’m more knowledgeable and passionate about health and wellness than I ever thought possible. I know what I need to do, now I need to start doing it. Oh, and those left over cupcakes? yeah, I threw those out 🙂
I love sweets, and I love salt, who am I kidding, I love just about anything that I probably shouldn’t eat! So on the way home from work today (knowing there were 2 leftover birthday cupcakes in my cupboard) I stopped at the Northside Simply For Life location to purchase a Quest bar with my Birthday money *!I love being 30 and still having birthday money* I have been heard so much about them but have yet to try one, so no time like the present! I purchased a cookies and cream and also a cookie dough one and hey with 1g of sugar, 21g of protein and very little carbs I’m in! I also was intrigued by PB2, as I’ve also been hearing lots about it! PB2 is a powdered peanut butter that you would add to Greek yogurt (or muffins, shakes, anything really) to have the taste of PB without the calories (I’ve been warned it is not to replace PB and its healthy fat, but good for flavour of PB when you don’t need the calories or the added fats) The label boasts ” Superior quality peanuts are slow roasted then pressed to remove 85% of the fat and oil.” SOLD! 🙂 Also grabbed some natural delicious looking granola to add into my breakfast occasionally. And now I want to try it all, but I will refrain until tomorrow! …Come on tomorrow!
I had a bunch of beef that needed to be cooked today so I made a massive pot of veggie loaded spaghetti sauce! Lean beef, onion, 3 peppers, mushrooms, chopped kale and shredded carrots! Now to portion it and freeze it! I’ll make some noodles and mix it in kid sized portions for when Mommy is eating something they won’t like 🙂 Efficiency is key around here!
(Photo courtesy of Fat Man Walking on Facebook)
I’ve just recently finished reading a wonderful book, Fat Man Walking Lessons in Loss, written by a local radio personality and fellow weight loss journey goer, Jay McNeil. *You can find his book, blog, and links to his other social media outlets (all of which I recommended following!) Here * The book is a great read and he writes like he’s having a conversation and I loved that so much. Sometimes it made me feel like he was talking only to me because of how spot on he was about self talk and how he got to his highest weight in the first place. It made me realize a lot of things, and do a lot of self reflection on how I got here and why I truly want to change. Not going to lie, some days I feel like giving up, like it’s a pointless endeavour to keep fighting with myself when I feel like this past 7 months has been a constant battle of two steps forward one step back, Throughout the course of the book I finally realized for myself, what my SFL consultant has been trying to tell me for months, stop doing this for the number on the scale and start doing it to feel better, live longer and healthily, just be happy with who I am, what I do and what I’m capable of.
After Baby G was born in 2012 I hit the gym hard and I lost 60lbs, the most I’ve ever been able to lose. Then I lost sight of why I was so focused on dropping the weight in the first place. I became overwhelmed with the trying rather than the doing. I was more focused on what people were thinking about me, and how I looked rather than how I was feeling. I was trying too hard, if that makes any sense. I was making every waking moment about weight loss and only lost myself in the process. Looking back now, it’s no surprise I gained half of that loss back, I felt like I was faking my attempt at health.
Lesson in Loss helped me realize that I am capable of so much more than I am letting myself believe, I just need to be brave enough to try, even if I have myself convinced I might fail. I need to just let go, simplify my life and trust the process. I need to start enjoying my life, enjoying the fun I’ll be able to have with my children, and return to my first love, nature.
Fat Man Walking: Lessons in Loss talks about the very real struggle of being overweight and the battle of losing it so accurately that I have asked my wonderful husband to read it to help him better understand how I feel. He’s amazing and supportive but it’s hard for anyone to truly relate to a situation they’ve never been in. So thank you Jay, for being so open and honest about your journey as I’m sure I’m not the only one who feels this way.